But I can't help the way I feel on the inside. It's not my fault.
Why be ashamed of something that is not my fault?
I'm also afraid that I could be mistaken.
What if I start to transition, other people eventually find out...then I discover that I don't want to live as a woman after all?
That would be embarrassing...
Well...transitioning could be a mistake, but it could also be the right thing.
I feel like I want to give it a good try. Haven't done that yet, only dressed up a little bit inside my home, but not really tried to live as a woman.
Haven't gone outside dressed up as a woman yet.
Why do I care so much what others think of me anyway?
Its my life.
I can do what I want with my own life.
And its not like I have a lot to loose.
Life now feels meaningless.......no friends, no partner, no job etc.
All my problems will obviously not go away just because I transition to a woman.
But maybe I cant solve the biggest problem: how to be myself and feel good about it.
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